Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Treatment Number Three
When I received my next appointments today, I saw that in addition to my genetics appointment next Monday, they have scheduled a surgical consult. I am thinking that this is because the results are positive and they are suggesting a double mastectomy. I guess I will know Monday.
We headed up to the cottage, and arrived to find two more trees across the driveway. The first is smaller than last week, but the other is at last 20" across and about 50' tall. it snapped off about 8' up and is hanging there, so we will deal with them in the morning. I will post pictures tomorrow, as it is cold and dark out there.
I have my blood numbers for this week, but they are in the truck until morning as it is too cold to go out there again. I will post them tomorrow with the photos of the trees.
~Inez
Monday, December 29, 2008
Success at the Port
After waiting 40 minutes for blood work, we were send down to the chemo suite, as the blood techs can not access ports. We waited down there for about another 15 minutes, and then I was called in. I explained the problems that occurred the last time and Tracey assured me there would not be a problem. With in minutes, she had accessed the port and drawn the blood. I did not feel a thing. When I told her about being told the problem was how I had sleep on the port, she wanted to know which nurse had said it. I did not say anything at the time, but before I left, I told it it was Nurse Cratchett (I told her her real name).
We then returned to the waiting room. I raced off the the ladies room, and when I returned Kyle informed me they called me as I went around the corner. But she was waiting for me and we got in to see the doctor very quickly.
Now, tomorrow's treatment should be a breeze, with no delay due to access and I hope to be out of there by Noon at the very latest.
I am sending out positive thought for Ed tonight, as he had a bypass done this morning. Take care buddy.
~Inez
Friday, December 26, 2008
Boxing Day 2008
I am feeling better about Christmas now that it is passed, but I still am not super happy about the holiday. It is a whole lot of work, and now that the kids are 21 and 19, I think it is time they start doing more. I have to chase them both down to get them to do their Christmas shopping and this year I had to buy their gift for their Dad, and give them what I had gotten him. I bought mine own gift and gave it to Mandy to give to me and placed the online order for my gift from Greg. I guess for a chance, I would like to see them take the inititive for Christmas. I told Kyle we (he and I) are going away next year, and I am not doing anything.
I guess I should be thankful, that we still have an income, and that Mandy and I have access to no cost medical care, and that both our prognoses are good. I guess that when I look at what other people are going through, I should be more thankful.
I say a prayer tonight for everyone around who needs it and pray that they be successful in their battles. And if you are out there Ellie - hugs.
~Inez
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Merry Effing Christmas
Tuesday we ventured into Renfrew for some last minute shopping. As soon as we started out, things were strange in the truck. First, the ‘Service air bag” warning was displayed. In 5 vehicles with air bags, we have never seen this warning before. By the time we got to Griffith, things had gotten much worse. The dash electronics had gone goofy. All indicators and gauges were out, but every couple of minutes, the dash would come back to life and I would know my speed and the radio would come back to life. The heater and wipers were working. I stopped, and Greg got out to check that the lights were working, and they all seemed alright, so we continued into town to the GMC dealer. When I arrived at the dealer, we realized it had not recorded any mileage from the cottage to Renfrew.
At the dealership, they witnessed the strange behaviour of the truck. At one point, after we turned it off, they could not even start it. After watching the gauges come to life, I was able to start it. They took it into the shop and hour later, they reported they could not get it to screw up again. It did not report any error codes from the incident. It seemed OK the rest of the day. We finished our shopping and headed home. The truck was fine all the way home.
After supper Greg and Kyle got the tree and decorations down from the attic.
This morning 2/3 of the tree went up along with some garlands and a few Christmas kick knacks are also set up. While the tree is mostly decorated, I am leaving the box of tree stuff out in case Mandy wants to put some more on.
Mandy and her boyfriend were going to be up today as he does not have to go back to work until Boxing Day. But she called at supper time to tell me it was too late and she still did not have her laundry done, so they are going to come up until tomorrow (Christmas Day). At this point I will believe it when I actually see her. I guess that I should put the rest of the tree decorations away; I don’t see her doing much to the tree tomorrow.
Right now I feel pretty shitty about Christmas. This is the 3rd year that Christmas Eve has been fucked up. I have decided that next year either we go away for Christmas, or if we stay home (or here at the cottage), someone else can do all the work, all the shopping, wrapping, decorating and cooking all the bloody meals. At this point I have had just about enough of this merriment. Merry effing Christmas
Saturday, December 20, 2008
4 More Sleeps
It is snowing, again. We had a full day of snow Friday, and now it is snowing again, They are also forecasting snow for Tuesday, and get this, rain on Wednesday. This should be fun.
~Inez
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Saturday, December 13, 2008
More Surgery and What Do Mother's (your own) know?
By the time we got to day surgery, they were looking for her. After her IV was put in she wanted her cell phone and when I said no, she told me to get out, if she couldn't have her phone, she did not want me around either, so I joined Kyle in the waiting room. After about 10 minutes, we were called to the surgery area, as she changed her mind and wanted us to go up to the OR with her. After she was taken to surgery for 10:15, we went for a coffee and started to wait, she was finally back in recovery at 1:30. After a an incident with a nurse where Mandy was admonished for not wanting a suppository before her surgery, and a mixup with fast acting oxy instead of the regular she was supposed to receive, she was finally on her feet and we were able to go home.
When we got home. we had to stop at Shopper's for Seniors Day, so Kyle could use his discount to buy makeup for Mandy. She flitted about the store, visiting with past co-workers.
In the house by 6:00 pm she lays down, but her first visitor is here by 6:30. Later she goes out with Troy, who has redeemed himself by bringing her flowers. Before she went out, I reinforced the advise given to her at the hospital, limit yourself to clear fluids for balance of today, eat light small meals for a day or some, and take it easy for a couple of days getting lots of rest.
BUT WHAT DO I KNOW! Someone else's mother told her that since her surgery was so low, she could eat whatever she wanted, provided she chewed it really, really well. So what did she have to eat that night, pizza and again the next day.
And last night, Troy bought a big screen TV - just like ours - for her room, it makes his PlayStation games look better.
She returns to Sunnybrook in 3 to 4 weeks to see the surgeon and they should have all the pathology back by then. Hopefully, that will be our last visit to Sunnybrook.
It's All About Me
This last week seems to have taken a lot out of me, with my last treatment and the chaos that followed, and Mandy's surgery, I feel done in. This last week, I only left the house about 4 times, and one of them was for Thursday's hospital adventure. I find it too cold out, and just do not want to leave my cozy blankets on the couch. My fingers and toes are either frozen (to me) or numb and tingly.
I had to call the hospital a 2nd time about last Friday's treatment and hopefully that will go somewhere. I have re booked my January chemo session, as to not interfere with CSM training for work.
Last night I ventured out to the mall with Sherry for a couple hours of retail therapy. And we stopped at Tim's for coffee on the way home. I so miss William's. I can not believe that they closed the Townline location.
Today is the family Christmas but we are not going. Between my general malaise, and Mandy's surgery, I think I am better off staying home. Dad and Lois are taking us out for breakfast tomorrow.
To make everyone feel better about staying home today, I am going to roast a beef tenderloin in bacon, make smashed new pototoes roasted with olive oil and some nice veggies. I am going to try my hand at a red wine reduction with thyme and it looks like someone bought a chocolate cake for dessert.
~Inez
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Day from Hell
I woke, made a pot of coffee and sat down to check my email. I was overtaken with a wave of nausea. This was the first time I experienced this in all my treatments. I took a pill and waited for it to pass, it didn't. Within 30 minutes, I was hanging on to the sides of a bowl. Thankfully, all I had all morning was water. I was back in bed soon and with the exception of a couple of hours, spent the rest of the day there. Finally, by 6:00 pm, I felt well enough to eat and Kyle made me soup and a grilled cheese sandwich.
Hopefully, tomorrow will be better.
~Inez
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Lunch With Anne
First thank you to Anne for taking me to lunch on her trip through town on November 21. It was excellent company and good food. We went here www.avantifood.com. We had a antipasta platter, and bread and olive platter and then yummy pastas.
And a real huge thank you to Scott for the beautiful flowers. But a hint, next time you buy flowers for a woman other than your wife, you should buy her some too (especially when you need her to deliver them for you) LOL
Treatment from Hell and Nurse Cratchett
Yesterday I had what was probably my worst treatment to date. It wasn’t that the drugs caused a reaction or that I was sick, it was the incompetent nurse. When we first went in, the first nurse introduced herself and said she was just back from her 10 month maternity leave. As she prepared the trays, I explained that my port was difficult to access and that I would prefer one of the nurses who has actually accessed it before to do it. She said none of them where available and processed to miss it by about an inch. She called Nurse Cratchett, the nurse she was shadowing, one who screwed it up before. She then to a poke at it, missed and claimed it was because she was pretty sure it was flipped and upside down that she missed. Then another nurse took a try and missed before they decided they had to do something else. Cratchett called for Dr. Zalewski and asked that I be sent to radiology to have an x-ray done to see if had flipped over. Cratchett then suggested that it couldn’t be accessed because I was sleeping on it wrong (huh, like can you explain that to me).
They called x-ray and they made an appointment there for me. After lots of confusion and waiting we made it down to radiation and waited some more. The doctor there assured me that it was not flipped or twisted and that there was nothing I was doing it to cause it to turn. He was able to access it, but it did take him 3 tries. In fact he actually bent 2 needles. He had to give me a freezing because it was so sore, since the Emla cream had worn some 90 minutes earlier. I guess my balling my eyes out was causing his some trouble too, along with my moans and screams.
He said that he knows why they were having trouble, that the port had to be held very tightly and accessed, and if you let it go, to say pick up the needle, it would move and you would have to start it again. He suggested that I request only the 3 nurses that had found it before be allowed to do it, and if he was available he would be willing to do it. He also assured me that it was nothing I was doing wrong, like sleeping the wrong way.
The rest of the treatment was uneventful, but it made for miserable day. In addition, now a procedure that was supposed to last 4 hours again stretched to 7 hours. Added with the fact that I was going out at 6:30 pm and still had to put a salad together for the evening, every minute that ticked by just pissed me off more. I was in such a foul mood that Irene, one of the nurses who accessed the port first try asked me what was wrong when she saw me on one of my trips to the bathroom. Oh, apparently she was there when I first asked in the morning.
Blood Numbers
LKC (white) Dec 5 - 6.8 Nov 13 - 4.8 Oct. 23 -5.7 October 2-6.0 Sept 11-5.5
ERC (red) Dec 5 -4.04Nov 13 - 3.92 Oct. 23-4.44 October 2-4.51 Sept 11-4.60
HB (hemoglobin) Dec 5 - 113 Nov 13 - 110 Oct. 23-123 October 2-123 Sept 11-128
PLT (platelets)Dec 5 - 333 Nov 13 -326 Oct. 23-320 October 2-259 Sept 11-272
Neut# Dec 5 - .75 Nov 13 -.73 Oct. 23-3.9 October 2-4.4 Sept 11-3.6
The Block Christmas party was great, and I bought home a gorgeous Christmas platter.
Hardwood Flooring and Gas Leaks
Saturday, Kyle, Mandy and headed over to Rona for a seminar on hardwood flooring. First, there was no one around, and then they paged someone how was going to collect us and take us to the seminar area. Like put up a sign people, don’t keep us guessing. While wondering around looking for the seminar area, I spotted to Rona employees looking up at the ceiling, discussing where the shutoff value was. I did not see anything dripping, and continued on my way. A few minutes later, they started evacuating the store, as they had a gas leak. We waited around for about 40 minutes, watched a fire truck and 4 police cruisers attend and then decide we would try our luck at Sunday’s seminar – hell maybe they will even now where it is going to take place.
On top of everything else on Fridady, we have Mandy's surgery coming up on Thursday, and that for me, is making me even more weepy.
~Inez
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
This really sucks
The joint pain seems a wee touch better, but I am noticing it migrating to the upper half of my body. Today I noticed pain in my upper back, and shoulders, along with a pounding headache. I went up for an hour nap and slept 3 hours, but I guess if the body needs it, it will take it.
Monday, November 17, 2008
It really, really hurts.
Tonight we are going to my brother's, so that we can change Mandy's tires on her car. I haven't seen him for some time (September I think).
Mandy goes for her pre op on Thursday of this week. Hopefully we get a confirmed surgery date and time soon.
This is what we are having for supper tonight.
Creamy Dijon Lemon Chicken Broccoli Casserole
Make breadcrumbs with 2 slices fresh bread (in blender).
Add to 1 Tbsp. Melted butter and sauté until lightly browned, stirring constantly. Set aside.
Cut 2 large chicken breasts into 1 inch cubes. Sauté in 1 Tbsp. Butter. I now cheat and use 300 gr. sliced cooked chicken breast, from the freezer (homemade.)
Add 2 c. milk, ¼ c. mayo, ¼ c. yogurt or sour cream, 2 Tbsp. Dijon, 2 Tbsp. Lemon juice and 2 Tbsp. Corn starch.
Simmer until it coats the back of a spoon.
Meanwhile steam (Microwave on defrost) 6 cups frozen Broccoli, cauliflower and carrots until tender crisp (5 minutes).
Cut up any large pieces.
Spray 9 x 13 glass pan with Pam. Spread steamed veggies.
Top with chicken and sauce.
Combine breadcrumbs and 1/3 c. Parmesan cheese and sprinkle of top of sauce.
Bake at 350 F. for 15 to 20 minutes, until bubbly.
Serve with basmati rice.
~Inez
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
The Last Week.
Last Weekend, Kyle and I went to the cottage Friday and returned on Monday. While there we took our summer chrome 20" wheels off the truck and put our all seasons. Kyle gave me the cordless drill to make the job easier and he lifted the wheels on to the truck for me (I didn't do it all myself) this time.
Anyway, while seating the nuts on the third wheel, is was complaining to Kyle about the drill reaching tight, and the torque spinning the drill. He told me to put my hand on the battery to stop it. I ques I misunderstood him and tried stopping it with my forehead. I now have a lovely bump and bruise. It was not as bad as I could have been, because I got ice on it pretty quick and kept in on most of the night. Yesterday, Mandy wanted to know why I had black bruises along the bridges of my nose. Seems the bruises drained to those spots,and all my scrubbing didn't do any good.
Blood Numbers
Yesterday I went for blood work and to see the oncologist.
here are my updated numbers
LKC (white) Nov 13 - 4.8 Oct. 23 -5.7 October 2-6.0 Sept 11-5.5
ERC (red) Nov 13 - 3.92 Oct. 23-4.44 October 2-4.51 Sept 11-4.60
HB (hemoglobin) Nov 13 - 110 Oct. 23-123 October 2-123 Sept 11-128
PLT (platelets) Nov 13 -326 Oct. 23-320 October 2-259 Sept 11-272
Neut# Nov 13 -.73 Oct. 23-3.9 October 2-4.4 Sept 11-3.6
We saw Dr. Zalewski but with my 1:20 pm appointment, we were not called in until after 2:30 and Kelly told us they were still seeing the mornings appointments. We did not get out of there until after 3:00pm. While there the doctor told me that the next appointment would be a long one, so I figured may 4 or 5 hours. My appointment was for 9:45 am and we went in on time. We walked out of there at 4:45 pm (7 hours).
Anyway, I got my first infusion of Herceptin today. It will continue for about 1 year (every three weeks).
I also received my first of 4 infusions of Taxil (paclitaxel). This is one of the reasons we were there so long. The infusion took over 3 hours. This is because of the possibility of side effects, They infuse it very, very slowly. And then they monitor your vitals (blood pressure and temperature) every 15 minutes.
Blood pressure is taken using that torture device that squeezes your arm to while in an inch of your life, such fun, and then to add insult to injury, the machine would not operate properly on battery, and kept having to repeat the test each time.
~inez
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Why Does Everything Taste Like Crap
And smells are off, I can not put my finger on it, but things are not smelling right. Last night at Linda's I could smell a vanilla-bread pudding aroma, but they were having tuna casserole (it could have been worse i guess, smelling tuna instead of vanilla) but there seems to be a sweet smell around, almost cloying. I quess I could be smell alot worse things so I will just deal with it.
I seem to be sleeping better now. I have actually slept most of the night for the past few days, although I have been taking naps in the afternoon.
This morning I left for my appointment at Nuclear Medicine, only to have Kyle call me and tell me it was next week. I had my date book open to the wrong page. (It's the chemo's faulft and that's my story).
And speaking of taste, a few people have asked for the tiramisu recipe, so here it is, from the hills of Siena in Tuscany.
4 eggs, separated
150 gr. white sugar
500 gr. marscapone cheese
1 package ladyfingers
4 oz espresso - cooled
2 oz liqueur (I use frangelico but you can use, whiskey, Bourbon, rye or almond liquor)
2 oz. grated chocolate. (i use 70% dark Cocoa)
Select a pan that will accommodate 2 layers of dessert. Dry fit the lady fingers, trimming as required to completely cover the bottom of the dish. Do the same for the second layer, and set those biscuits aside.
Separate eggs, and beat the whites until firm peaks appear. Set aside.
Beat yolks with sugar, until very fluffy. Beat in marscapone until smooth. Fold in egg whites.
Set aside.
Combine espresso and liquor in a shallow dish. Quickly dip each lady finger in coffee mixture then lay in pan. Complete first layer. Spread with half of the egg/marscapone mixture. Sprinkle with 1/2 of the grated chocolate.
Complete the second layer of ladyfingers, dipping in coffee mixture, than placing in dish. Top with remaining egg/marscapone mixture, and sprinkling with the remaining grated chocolate.
Chill until serving time and dust with cocoa powder just before serving.
Serves 10 to 12
~Inez
Monday, October 27, 2008
New Favourites and Oldies Revisited
But how did this bring me an old favourite?
A couple of weeks ago, Irene and I went to visit Aunt Rene. While there, I asked her if she might have a copy of Mom's Rhubarb Custard Pie recipe. Like everyone else, her answer was no, but after devouring 2 servings of tiramisu Saturday, I called her to see if we could drop over on Sunday and bring her some. She said of course and that she had been meaning to call. She found a slip of page, torn from a steno pad it looks like, with a recipe for rhubarb custard pie. It wasn't her writing but she wanted me to look at is. Sure enough, it is Mom's recipe. I can't wait until spring for the tender rhubarb to try it. I might have enough in the freezer to make a small pie, but I think it is tougher, late fruit, and I don't want to taint the pie with it.
I have still not been sleeping well. Usually within a day or two of my treatment, I find myself awake at between 3 and 4 in the morning, unable to get back to sleep. I find myself getting up and watching TV or playing on the computer for a couple of hours, then heading back to bed for 3 or 4 hours.
I seem to have been on my feet since treatment last week. I need to take a break.
~Inez
Friday, October 24, 2008
Today was the last treatment of the first chemo cycle.
Diane was not available to access my port so I took my chances with Maureen, and she got it first time. Not that it was painless, but it was bearable. I did use the elma cream and it did help. It only numbs the skin, so I did experience some discomfort. My treatment went quicker today. It took less than 2 1/2 hours today. It does not seem to be any worst than any of the other treatments.
My blood numbers this time are as follows
LKC (white) Oct. 23 -5.7 October 2-6.0 Sept 11-5.5
ERC (red) Oct. 23-4.44 October 2-4.51 Sept 11-4.60
HB (hemoglobin) Oct. 23-123 October 2-123 Sept 11-128
PLT (platelets) Oct. 23-320 October 2-259 Sept 11-272
Neut# Oct. 23-3.9 October 2-4.4 Sept 11-3.6
Before I start the next round, I have to have another heart scan - a Muga Scan at Rest. This will be next week.
Mandy's appointment for her surgery has been booked, then cancelled and rebooked. I rebooked for December, after her exams, so that she does not miss any more time from school. We do not have an absolute date, but it should be the week of the 15th.
Because of a nurse's visit at like 9 am on Monday and a doctor's appointment later at 2:30, I guess we are not heading up to the cottage this weekend, maybe we will go next week.
Opening the mail lately has been such a lift. This week a card came from Cornie and Lorraine - it was such a lift, and then this morning, just before leaving for the hospital, a parcel came from Anne, with a beautiful pair of hand knitted socks. I am assuming she knitted these with her own hands (I am sure she will correct me is I am wrong) and they are lovely. I will try to post a couple of photos tomorrow, of the socks. my wig and my shiny head.
Good night.
~Inez
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
So Much To Say, So Little To Say
Anyway, Thanksgiving passed and we had turkey and ham. Troy was up with Mandy for the weekend and we put him to work. He cut sumac, cut firewood and worked hard. Poor guy, hopefully we haven't scared him off. As we ate I was asking, really, what did we have to be thankful for - yes I know they caught both of our cancers, by why us, and why together?
Because we did not plan ahead, we had to return home to vote on Tuesday. We returned up on Wednesday, Greg with us. Thursday, we went to Calabogie to go shooting at the quarry. We got off to a wonderful start. We arrived, only to have Greg inform us that he forgot the keys to the ammo box. Since going back to the cottage meant an 80 km round trip, we continued into town where Kyle purchase new locks and borrowed a bolt cutter at the Home Hardware. Problem solved. We did the little shopping we had to do, and returned to the quarry, where Greg tried to talk me into firing the shotgun again. NO WAY, that sucker kicks. He enjoyed his time there.
After a couple of hours over shooting, we returned to the cottage in time for supper. The rest of the weekend we did yard work. Kyle got the chain replaced on the chainsaw and got some trimming done, we rake and rake and raked. We trimmed the low pine branches along the driveway and raked some more. Kyle cleaned up the old shed and reorganized that.
As we head into my final treatment of the first cycle I have noticed some things. First, there is a dryness in my eyes, but they seem to tear up at night, and i wake up with crusty eyes. My balance had been off; first I fell in the bath and then I tripped raking and almost did a face plant into the back of Ed and Sheila's little boat (my fault, not the boat's) but I was able to get my arm up in time. A couple of times walking, I felt very uncoordinated, like I forgot how to move my feet. I will watch for these things after this next treatment.
I spoke to Kelly, my oncology nurse about the problems they were having with the port. While there is nothing surgically they can, short of replacing it, she did agree that I should be very insistant and request the Diane only be the one to access it. This coming Thursday, in addition to me regular blood work, they will be taking the blood for the genetic testing. Results should be in by the end of January.
~Inez
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Sunnybrook and Woodbridge
After leaving the hospital we visited Alex Farms for some Gorgonzola and gnocchi. We then took a drive up to Woodbridge for some Italian deals. I picked up some more cheese, breads and things.
Maybe someone can tell me where in Woodbridge to go to find some "Tuscan" pottery to make up for what I did not buy in Italy.
Last night I finally got a good nights sleep. Before Mandy's appointment, I got only about 1-1/2 to 2 hours sleep, but last night I slept from 11 to 7:30 am. I feel a lot better today, except that tummy feels out of sorts.
Today was my first visit with the genetics department at the cancer centre. I have decided to be tested for the BRCA 1/2 genes. I feel that it is a good idea, and it gives us an indication as to whether or not Mandy should be tested in the future.
Because I am scheduled to start radiation in February of 2009, they are expediting the testing and it will only take 4 months instead of 1 year. This is because if you test positive and want to consider double mastectomy, with reconstruction, it is better to be done before the radiation starts, so I am thinking we will be delaying the start of the radiation, until at least the results are in.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
The Week In Review
So this has been quite a week.
Update on Mandy
On Wednesday, we took Mandy to meet with the surgeon from Sunnybrook Health Sciences, Dr. Covens. He is on of the leading ob/gyn treating cancer in North America(if not the world). She DOES NOT require the trachelectomy. They will be doing another cone biopsy on the 7th of October, next Tuesday. They are still be doing the laparoscopic sentinel node mapping and bilateral pelvic node dissection (examination and possible removal of the lymph nodes). That will occur sometime in November.
My New Hair
I finally got the bangs on my wig trimmed. It looks really good. I will have to post photos later as the camera is gone away with Mandy.
Update on me
Thursday was my day to meet with the doctor and for my pre-treatment blood work. My numbers this time are as follows:
LKC (white) October 2-6.0 Sept 11-5.5
ERC (red) October 2-4.51 Sept 11-4.60
HB (hemoglobin) October 2-123 Sept 11-128
PLT (platelets) October 2-259 Sept 11-272
Neut# October 2-4.4 Sept 11-3.6
Yesterday, Friday, I had my third round of chemo therapy. Because Kyle has been fighting off snuffles for the past 2 weeks he stayed home and Karen came with me.
They again had trouble finding my port and it took 3 tries again. The nurse finally had to get Diane the wonder nurse to do it. Next time I go in, I am asking for her right off the bat. This week's nurse did however, call to get me a script for the Emla cream for me. This stuff is applied of the site of the Port an hour before the procedure and it numbs the skin to avoid the sting (hopefully this and first time in will make it less painful).
Karen was a great help, and performing her butt clenching exercises to take my mind off the pain was inspired. I actually had to open my eyes to watch (previously they had been clenched tight to deflect the pain). I don't think the guy in the next chair appreciated them (the butt clenches) as much as I did though.
So far so good, I was feeling a little woozy when I got up this morning, but I am feeling pretty good now. Last night when I got home, i made my angel hair pasta with broccoli. I prepped all the veggies in the morning, so it was on the table in less than 30 minutes. The trick is to start cooking the veggies as soon as you put the water on for the pasta soon you can put the drained pasta right into the sauce.
Garlic infused Angel Hair with Broccoli (makes 4 main course servings)
1 lb (500 gr) angel hair pasta (broken in half)
2 bunches Broccoli, trimmed into 1-1/2 inch florets, quartered into small pieces and stems peeled and julienned into matching lengths
1 red peppers, julienned into 1-1/2" pieces
1 small onion, red preferred, sliced length way through the root into 1/8" wedges
1 c. Extra virgin Olive Oil (the only Olive oil I buy) (divided)
1/3 c. chopped garlic, I buy large jars of it pre chopped
1 lemon, zested and cut into 1/8ths
salt and pepper to taste
2 c. finely grated Parmesan cheese (we use a micro plane)
1 c reserved pasta cooking water
Prep all the veggies before you start. I often do them the night before and bag them so all I have to do when I get home is zest and cut the lemon.
Set water to boil for pasta. When it boils, salt generously and add pasta, stirring occationally to keep from sticking. Meanwhile...
In a large stir fry pan, heat 1/2 c. Olive oil with the Garlic. Simmer 5 minutes until fragrant.
Add onion and Broccoli stems and cook 3 - 4 minutes. Add in remaining broccoli florets and red pepper. Stir until tender-crisp. Add lemon zest and salt and pepper to taste. Add remaining olive oil.
Before draining pasta, set aside 1 c. of the cooking liquid. Drain pasta and add to the veggies - DO NOT rise.
Remove pan from heat. Toss pasta with veggies to combine. Sprinkle with 1/2 the cheese, then drizzle with about 1/4 c. of the pasta water. Toss with blend (cheese should dissolve into the mix) Repeat with the remaining cheese and 1/4 c. pasta water. If it seems dry, add a little more water and toss. It should just glisten.
Serve with additional cheese and lemon wedges.
Note: I know this seems like a lot of oil, but it is the sauce, along with the cheese and pasta water. And it is Olive oil and good for you. Try it this way once, before cutting the amount of oil. It should not be greasy at all.
~Inez
Monday, September 29, 2008
Cervical Cancer
He advised her that they no longer classified what she has as micro-invasive cancer, but as"'real' cancer, that would kill her if not treated". An further reading of the biopsy revealed cancer cells in the blood steam and she will require Cancer Surgery, not a procedure. She sees the surgeon who will be doing the surgery on Wednesday and will probably have her surgery within another 2 weeks.
It is an newer procedure they are talking about, called a trachelectomy, where the take a portion of the cervix and they will also perform laparoscopic sentinel node mapping and bilateral pelvic node dissection (examination and possible removal of the lymph nodes).
Kind of makes my issue with needing the bangs of my wig trimmed pretty inconsequential.
~Inez
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
The cottage and Taste buds
For about the last week or so, I have been complaining about the last batch of butter I bought not having much salt. This weekend I noticed that I have no salt taste buds left (or very few). Even straight salt, has little or no taste. Is this another side effect of the chemo?, I don’t know.
The little bit of hair that I have, all 1/4" of it is falling out a an alarming rate. My head now has a glorious crop of bald patches. Later today I go to pick up my wig. I will post pictures tomorrow, both of my bald patches and my new do.
~Inez
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Look Good, Feel Better
I saw the wig ladies, and my wig is languishing in customs somewhere. Hopefully I will have it before the end of the week.
Last night I taught my first class of the season. It was a a busy day, with the Look Good session, the afternoon in Toronto and class in the evening. I was tired by 11:00 but then aren't we all.
~Inez
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Poll closed...and the winner is My Favourite
That is the one I ordered, but I may get short and sassy as a back up.
We went to the Zion United Church BBQ dinner yesterday with Dad and Lois, Issac,Liz and Irene. It was a really good dinner. They served Beef, baked potatoes, gravy, corn (on and off the cob), sliced tomatoes, coleslaw, chili sauce (yum yum), rolls and 4 types of pie. Many dinners sampled all four, lemon meringue, pumpkin, peach and apple. They serve 450-500 paying quests and then serve the staff, some 75 to 100 persons, volunteers all.
I still am experiencing hiccups, usually at night, but I believe it is a side effect of the anti-nausea medication. They only seem to occur in the first few days following the treatments, when I am taking the Amend and they are a listed side effect.
THIS IS NOT PG
This may be too much information for some, but I think I know why they had trouble with my port. I am NOT small breasted LOL, and when the port was installed, I was laying flat on my back and the girls where unrestrained, trying to escape to my armpits. When they try to access the port, I am sitting upright with a bra on, so the angle changes. Hopefully this insight, along with some topical anesthetic cream will make the next treatment go smoother.
Hopefully, we are heading up to the cottage later today, until sometime on Tuesday. I am teaching a 6:00 that night so I have to be home. The kids will be fending for themselves again.
A correction to my chemo list - the herceptin will last one full year. The first 3 month combined with Paclitaxel (4 cycles) then will continue for 9 more month (total of 16 cycles) for one year total.
~Inez
Friday, September 12, 2008
Treatment # 2
It did not go quite as smooth as I hoped it would. First, they had trouble locating the port and the 2 nurses could not agree where it was. Apparently, it has shifted position and both nurses missed it. A third attempt was successful, but the first 2 stabs left a stinging feeling. The treatment itself went pretty smoothly, and we were done in less than 3 hours.
For supper tonight, we headed to Swiss Chalet for their rotisserie chicken. I again have a touch of heartburn, and I forgot to get my script filled yesterday. Oh well, I guess it will be Pepto tonight.
I got my blood numbers. For those who know these things, they are:
LKC (white) 5.5
ERC (red) 4.60
HB (hemoglobin) 128
PLT (platelets) 272
Neut# 3.6
~Inez
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Wigs and Doctor's Appointments
The doctor said that my blood numbers were good, but I forgot to write them down. He did say that 1 week after my treatment, my white blood count was low, and that I should avoid sick people. I also got him to prescribe something to help with the heartburn.
Anyway, we are on track for tomorrow's treatment. Mandy will be dropping us off and picking us up after we are done.
After the visit it the hospital, I went for another wig fitting. I am posting some pictures Kyle took and you can vote for your favourite. The vote will not influence my decision, but I will let you know the fan's favourite.
~Inez
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Ready to shave it off
Well, today was the day. Following the start of hair loss yesterday, I decided to be done with this, and have Kyle shave it all off today.
He had some fun with it. First a little punk and then the final cut, with a little duck.
Some observations.
First of all, it is cold outside. I did not notice this in the afternoon, but this evening without hair, I was actually cold.
Getting out in the morning is going to be easy, nothing to comb, just a quick buff. And I am going to save a fortune on shampoo and conditioner.
I expect in the next few days the stubble will be gone too.
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Hair Loss
For those that have asked my what kind of Chemo I am receiving, I will try to explain what I understand. The Regiment is called AC--> Taxol Chemotherapy. The plan consists of 8 treatments cycles, each lasting 21 days (3 weeks). During the first 4 cycles, two drugs, Doxorubicin and Cyclophosphamide will be administered through my port. For the next 4 cycles, I will be receiving Paclitaxel along with Herceptin. After the 4 cycles are completed, I will continue with the Herceptin for I am assuming, another 6 months (9 months total). I may be wrong in the length of time for the Herceptin.
Following the completion of the first 4 cycles, I will be receiving radiation for 5 weeks/5 days a week, starting sometime in February, following my planning session at the end of January.
I am not happy with the way my port incision has healed - a misunderstanding by the nurse had me keep a waterproof dressing over it until last weekend. It is healing better now, but I think there is going to be a big scar.
Buy for now - I have a date with a barber.
Monday, September 1, 2008
Labour Day Weekend 2008
The pain in my side has continued pretty much the same, better in the mornings, worse at night. Helping Kyle with the crib stairs at the lake aggravated it, so I watched.
Last night I experienced deep muscle cramps in my calves. These are very similar to the cramps experienced during pregnancy. Both times (once for each leg) woke Kyle up. The only way to ease the cramp is to rub/massage it out. I don't know if this pain is related to the treatments.
We had a traumatic trailering episode this weekend. While hauling some spoiled bags of cement to the stair location, the trailer jumped off the ball of the truck, bent/broke the safety chains, slammed into the back of the truck, rode up along the tail gate, then crashed into the guard rail on the other side of the road. Thankfully there were no other vehicles on the road, and the guard rail kept it out of the lake. Looks like I need to replace the tail gate and rear bumper of the truck.
I still have my hair, but am hoping to post some wig photos so everyone can vote (non binding) on the different selections.
Friday, August 29, 2008
What is this pain?
Yesterday I visited Dr. P and he ordered an ultrasound, blood work and chest x-ray. So far, there does not seem to be any cause they can see. I spoke to the primary care nurse at the Cancer Centre and she noted everything, but again, it does not seem to be related to the treatments. It feels better in the mornings than the evenings, but the meds (percs) take the edge off to let me get to sleep.
We have decided to head up to the cottage (we have been waffling back and forth), because if I stay home, I will just have to deal with kids.
It is one week since my first treatment and except for indigestion and hiccups, there has been no reactions. I still have my hair, less the hank I cut out and coloured for wig matching.
I guess we will see you all from the other side of the Labour Day weekend.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Wigs
I narrowed wig selection down to 5. Colour is not an issue, I will be going with an auburn. Style will be feathered, with a layered look. I will post pictures as soon as I make my final choice. I will be taking Mandy with me for the final selection, along with Kyle again.
So far, still no side effects that I can identify. Today I am having a terrible pain in my side, right side back. It feels like a muscle spasm. At times, I can barely stand up straight. If it is no better tomorrow, I will the call the cancer center just to rule anything out.
I thought I was dong pretty good with things until I went into Heath Place. As soon as I spoke to someone I broke down. They are pretty good in there and very helpful.
Monday, August 25, 2008
I am heading to the kitchen to prep tonight’s supper. First, the potatoes and veg from last night, I am going to sauté up some onion and celery, add the potatoes, cauliflower and carrot and some stock, then puree, add a little cream and cheddar for a nice soup.
Then I am going to make my pork with Peppers and Carrots. See the recipe here http://www.recipezaar.com/185269
It is always a family favourite.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
In The Beginning
On May 20th I went for my mammogram, the technician asked, "How long has this nipple been inverted?” I figured I was going to hear this question quite often. She decided to take some extra pictures of my left side.
Within a couple of days, I got a call asking me to return for more pictures, so on May 27th I had my Second Mammogram and then I went for an Ultrasound. The technician asked the same question, "How long has this nipple been inverted?”. Following the ultrasound, the doctor came in and advised me that they wanted to do a needle biopsy. I explained that I was leaving for Italy in 9 days and they fit me in for 2 days later, On May 29th the needle biopsy was done. Luckily it was ay 8 o’clock on the breast so the bruising was not visible with all my new tops and bathing suits.
I called my doctors office and asked that unless they had positive results for me, I did not want to hear anything before I left, and that I would be in the first day I was home. That day was June 23rd and the results from the biopsy were positive for cancer. Later that day I received a call from the surgeon’s office, and had my appointment set for 2 days later, June 25th.
The surgeon informed me that he could remove the tumour and nipple, along with the lymph nodes, followed by radiation or a mastectomy and no radiation. Because I knew that the “no radiation” was not guaranteed, I went for the lumpectomy. They scheduled me for a battery of tests to rule out any other tumours, and on July 3rd I had a Bone scan, Chest X-ray and Ultrasounds (abdominal and uterine).
July 8th arrived and I showed up at day Surgery for the lumpectomy and removal of most lymph nodes. It went well and I was home by 8:00 pm. I had a little of a rough night, in that I could not even keep down water. I tried ginger ale and that was not much better. I tried some dry toast but that was even worse.This morning we had Mandy (DD) bring some fruit, Melba toast and apple juice. I managed to keep them down and things began looking up.The visiting nurse came for drainage and dressing care and was quite pleased with the way things progressed.
Jul 17, 2008, 11:13am
YIP~YIP~YIPPEE I HAD A SHOWERI HAD A SHOWER You have no idea how great I feel right now - last night when DD was here, the sweet, darling, adorable child pointed out that I finally smelt like I hadn't had a shower for over a week (I do love her dearly)Anyway, armed with the nurse's OK and roll of surgical tape and large ZIPLOC Freezer bag (we Are talking G cup puppies here girls)I set out to bathe myself under cascading water. Taped up in my freezer bag with enough tape to make Red Green proud, I looked like an x-rated ad for Ziploc products. Igor, my drainage bag, (this guy I Will not miss when he finally leaves my side), was firmly taped to my thigh.I forgot how nice it was to feel really, really clean. I think I will spend the rest of the day curled up with a good book.Yesterday at the LCBO I bought a bottle of Bacardi white and it came with a spiffy muddler. I was going to buy one yesterday morning and did not; it was $10 and was wooden. I thought I could do better with a dowel and a carving knife. This one is brushed steel with a mint green base, with the Bacardi bat cast in the bottom of it, I will have to post a photo of it later. Maybe after supper, I will forgot my pain killers and mix myself a pitcher of Mojitos.
August 15 2008
Let’s talk about Mandy first. For those of you who do not know she is our 19 year old daughter. During her annual check up she had another favorite of woman everywhere, an internal exam and Pap test. OF COURSE the Pap came back showing moderate to severe dysplasia. While we were in Italy, she was treated using L.E E.P. She received a call from her doctor after we returned home to come in and see her G.P. about her results. He advised her that the pathology of the sample taken showed Carcinoma-in-situ or micro invasive cancer. She would require another colposcopy and he was referring her to the oncologists at DRCC. Her appointment was yesterday.A side note, usually the first word out of every doctor’s mouth was, "we never see this in people your age", and yesterday was no exception.Dr. Bryson, from Kingston, was very nice. He drew her a picture of what was happening and discussed some options. She will probably require at least another L.E.E.P., at the very least. She has also been referred to another doctor, from Sunnybrook, who specializes in a more intensive L.E.E.P. She will be seeing him on the 26 of September (again at DRCC)Now on to me, as told previously, I had a pretty good recovery from my surgery. The drain came out 17 days following the surgery and I have been feeling pretty good. I have fairly good range of motion and have done most of the exercises except for the ones requiring both arms (more on that later). I feel pretty well back to normal. I received a call from Dr. Panowyk (my G.P.) to come in and see him about my bone scan. (Cause for panic). The scan showed that the cancer had NOT matastized (sp) but it did point out that I have arthritis in my a c joint (part of the shoulder). Anyway, barring any problems, I see the bone guy next Wednesday (20th, I have only been waiting to see him since the end of March, but I digress). Yesterday was my first appointment at DRCC. I saw Dr. Zalewski. It appears the cancer was Stage 2 Grade 2. However they detected the presence of the HER-2 tumour antigen. The aggressiveness of the cancer Grade 2 means a 60 % possibity of recurrence in the next 10 years, and presence of HER-2 increase the risk to 80 to 90%. To combat this, I will be starting chemo on Friday the 22nd. I will be ungoing two type of treatment. Combined, these two treatments reduce the odds to 20-30%. The first will be over a 6 month period and the other over a 9 month period. Because these treatments will be every 3 week for over the next year, I will have a vascular access port installed (hey I'm getting modded).This odyssey begins Monday with a teaching session at the DRCC. We left there with a shit load of reading to do (homework), so I will update everyone after my teaching (learning session) on Monday. I plan on following my Mother's path with this thing, beating it and going on to outlive the cancer.
August 18th Meet with Kelly for chemo learning session.
August 19th Muga Scan (heart) OK
August 20th finally see Dr Chharbra fro my shoulder. Only a 5 month wait, Almost do cartwheels out office, after cortisone shot.
August 20th Meet with Dr. Koll and Darrilyn (Radiation oncologist and his nurse, also Mandy’s nurse). Radiation to follow 6 months of chemo Starting Mid-February 5 days a week for 5 weeks.
August 21st Another visit to DRCC. This time blood work and signing consent for body modification
August 22nd Insertion of port and fist chemo treatment. First of they couldn’t get a good ground on me (no green light, I asked if it was like my trailer lights when we couldn’t get them grounded and the lights didn’t work but they never did answer that question.) They ended up moving the pad, (cold and wet), then replacing it, then adding a second, then a third, then a 4th on the other leg. After fiddling with the wires, they got a green light. I kept asking during the procedure if the light was still green “Yes, it is still green”, replied the chorus
They decided as they were disconnecting the ground, pulling all those griping adhesive pads off, that they should put in a call to tech services, as this ground fault had happened earlier in the week too (ya’ think?)
As the doctor was making the cut to form the pocket for the implant, I cringed and they decided to give me more freezing. Actually it was not too bad and they had me over to the DRCC by 10:00 am. Since my chemo was not scheduled until 3:30 they were monitoring my vitals until 11:00 then they were going to send me home until later, unless a cancellation came in before I left. They came in at 10:30 and announced they had a 10:45 cancellation. I was never so happy to hear they were going to pump me full of noxious drugs.
The actual treatment was not that big a deal. The port means no hunting for veins. The worst thing so far is the time. Waiting for the anti-nausea meds to kick in and the time it takes the nurse to set you up and actually administer the first med from 2 huge syringes. The next med is administered through an IV pump over 30 minutes, unless you get brain freeze (you know, that thing that happens when you drink your slushy too fast, or eat too much ice cream). Luckily I didn’t have any brain freeze. Kyle went out and got me a slice of pizza, as I had to fast overnight and all they have to give you as digestive cookies and ice cream. I skipped the ice cream (fear of brain freeze). Anyway, Maggie picked us up and we were home by 2:00 at the latest.